Oh so very tired

I forgot how tiring being a mother of an infant can be. However, add a 3 yr old and the fact that I'm breastfeeding to that and I feel as if I'm drowning at times. I'm super proud of myself that I've been able to exclusively breastfeed Jacob but there are many times that I'm tempted to give him a nice hearty bottle of formula. Madison was pretty much formula fed since birth and she slept through the night at 7 weeks!!! I just need to stop comparing them. I know the fact that at 9 weeks Jacob is only waking up once (at 3/4am) is a blessing for some people but I need my 7 straight hours of sleep. Tonight trey is in charge of the 3/4am feeding because I can barely function right now.

Speaking of breastfeeding, I am starving like Marvin ALL THE TIME!!! There's this myth that supposedly if you breastfeed all these pounds will disappear. Well, I myth busted that shiz because I still have ab 8-9 lbs that is refusing to leave my ass and hips. I have 0 work pants that fit. That's really frustrating bc I bought one pair of big girl pants that I wear once a week and then the rest of the week I wear dresses. It's -32 degrees in the office and I feel as if I'm practically makes when I have to pump at work THREE times. Grrrr. Trey said I could get a trainer as my push present but since I don't have an actual sound routine with Jacob waking up between 3 and 4, I don't know when I can actually start with a trainer. This stuff about having babies and breastfeeding is for the birds! Haha kidding-they're so worth it!

I've been back at work for a week now. Might make me a terrible mother but it's been nice! I enjoy the silence and adult conversation. However, I do miss that sweet face and all the snuggles. One day I'll hopefully work part-time!

We went to the mid-south fair this weekend. Madison refused to ride any ride beside the carousel because she could sit on my lap on the bench. Oh well-she had fun, especially as

skeeball.

She won the piggy at skeeball!!!