3 yr old...

Ugh! Today was a terrible morning. It didn't start out that way. Trey took Jacob's 3am feeding which was nice even though I had to wake trey up and I was awake the whole time but I was nice to lay in bed with my eyes closed. Jacob woke up at 6am so I got him and put him in our where he proceeded to go back to sleep. Since he was sleeping, I decided to start getting ready. I had makeup an hair done and then Madison woke up. I went and got her and she was so happy that I got her out of bed since 99.9999% of the time trey does. As I was holding her she told me she like me getting her and that she loved me and she gave me a sweet kiss. She got dressed while I made out oatmeal and then we are breakfast together. Jacob woke up at 7 and I let Madison eat in the living room on the TV tray while I nursed Jacob. All that was left to so was for Madison to brush her teeth and put her shoes on! Jacob finished and everything just went to hell. I told Madison to brush her teeth while I propped Jacob on the boppy in my room while I started to brush my teeth. I walk out of my room to start packing my car (still brushing my teeth) when I notice Madison is just standing on the stairs because she "wanted me." So instead of packing I race upstairs to brush out teeth together where she proceeds to take FOREVER to brush her teeth and complaint ab this and that. I'm so frustrated bc I still need to get dressed, get Jacob in the car seat, make sure I have all the bottles, my pumping stuff, Jacob's daycare bag, Madison's daycare bag and my purse! And then I just lose it. She starts talking back to me and just wasting time. I'm so mad I'm shaking!!! I just don't know what to do. Thankfully, mornings like this are far and few between but I need to find a way to deal with her. I know it's my fault because I got from 0 (total patience) to 100 pretty quickly. I'm just nervous about her teenage years. Ugh-being a mom to a daughter can be hard. I love her to pieces but she sure knows how to frustrate me.

To top that off, on my way to work there was so much traffic before the exit I needed to take and I couldn't tell why (bc I drive a sedan and there were too many 18 wheelers and SUVs on the road) that I got all the way on the left lane with the thought that I was going to smoke them and cut some ppl off until I realized the light was out!!! So now it's a 4-way stop and I have to cut across three lanes to take the exit-thankfully I was able to do that with no incidence. Please let the day get better. I will definitely be drinking wine tonight!

Oh so very tired

I forgot how tiring being a mother of an infant can be. However, add a 3 yr old and the fact that I'm breastfeeding to that and I feel as if I'm drowning at times. I'm super proud of myself that I've been able to exclusively breastfeed Jacob but there are many times that I'm tempted to give him a nice hearty bottle of formula. Madison was pretty much formula fed since birth and she slept through the night at 7 weeks!!! I just need to stop comparing them. I know the fact that at 9 weeks Jacob is only waking up once (at 3/4am) is a blessing for some people but I need my 7 straight hours of sleep. Tonight trey is in charge of the 3/4am feeding because I can barely function right now.

Speaking of breastfeeding, I am starving like Marvin ALL THE TIME!!! There's this myth that supposedly if you breastfeed all these pounds will disappear. Well, I myth busted that shiz because I still have ab 8-9 lbs that is refusing to leave my ass and hips. I have 0 work pants that fit. That's really frustrating bc I bought one pair of big girl pants that I wear once a week and then the rest of the week I wear dresses. It's -32 degrees in the office and I feel as if I'm practically makes when I have to pump at work THREE times. Grrrr. Trey said I could get a trainer as my push present but since I don't have an actual sound routine with Jacob waking up between 3 and 4, I don't know when I can actually start with a trainer. This stuff about having babies and breastfeeding is for the birds! Haha kidding-they're so worth it!

I've been back at work for a week now. Might make me a terrible mother but it's been nice! I enjoy the silence and adult conversation. However, I do miss that sweet face and all the snuggles. One day I'll hopefully work part-time!

We went to the mid-south fair this weekend. Madison refused to ride any ride beside the carousel because she could sit on my lap on the bench. Oh well-she had fun, especially as

skeeball.

She won the piggy at skeeball!!!

Life Has Changed as I Know It

Holy Shmoly - I'm a mother of two!

Jacob Sutton McClain - 7/25/14 7.3 lbs

It's been a crazy roller coaster since he's been here.  Trey and I are definitely done having kids.  He was such an easy baby the first 5 weeks.  Seriously - slept, ate and barely cried.  I felt so blessed.  Maternity leave was wonderful and he gave me so much time to myself that I started packing up the house!  Then week 5 came around and everything changed!  He became a completely different baby.  He has what I guess people call colic.  I blame it on terrible gas. He'll scream and cry and then pass a nice big fart and then calm down.  I'm breastfeeding so I'm thinking it's something that I'm eating so I've decided to give up milk, peanut butter and coffee.  :(  All of my favorite things in life.  However, I'm just happy that I've been able to feed him 100% breastmilk.  It was not possible with Madison but Jacob has been great!  He's also a super big chunk.  He's HUGE now.

Sweet Chubby Baby Smiles

First smile was my 30th b'day

Madison has really surprised us.  We were so nervous about her jealousy but there has been NONE!  She's been a great big sister.  She loves being on paci patrol and talks and kisses him all the time.  I'm so proud of her.  Granted, the first week home she was a bit more emotional than she's ever been.  Also having my mom here didn't help things either but since my mom's been gone and she's back at school in her normal routine it's been great.  I had both kids yesterday by myself because Madison has strep and it was fairly easy.  Jacob was a lot more work than Madison for sure.  All in all, she's a proud big sister!

Meeting her brother for the first time

First day home

Has fun putting her babies in her brother's swing

She LOVES holding him all the time

I'll end this with saying I'm so exhausted - more tired than I have ever felt in my life and I'm waiting and hoping he starts sleeping through the night soon but I look back at the 30 years of my life and I feel so completely blessed and happy.  My life isn't perfect but it's perfect to me.  There's not much more that I need in life (well, except for clothes that fit and more money to buy the clothes that'll fit).